This morning was fantastic. I was cruising along at work, making all kinds of progress. Then I took a break for lunch to go to Jordan's end-of- the-year picnic. It was great to see her face when I surprised her. They had great weather for the event, which was nice.
When I got back to the office, the headache really started. I spent a majority of the afternoon dealing with my attorney on the phone trying to come to some "resolution" about the summer visitation schedule. And now as I look back at the whole scenario, especially after talking to Dave about the whole shitty experience, I realize things should have panned out differently. Maybe the whole lesson in this is for me to strengthen my self-confidence/assertiveness...find out what it is that Dawn Terry really wants and don't let go of what it is that I am after. To stop letting others take advantage of me, stop letting them wear me down until I give in, but grow some balls and stop at nothing until I get my happiness.
Interesting.
Now what? That is the question. I need to be able to find balance...the ultimate goal. To achieve balance seems to be a very difficult task, especially for a mother who tends to put others before herself. But how will your children respect you if you don't respect yourself? Stand.
Ah ha...Stand by Rascal Flatts. "When push comes to shove, you'll taste what you're made of..." Music does something amazing to my soul. Now let's see what Dawn is made of...
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