31 May 2008 - Day 69

It sure was an eventful day. I had some time alone with Jordan, which was awesome. We went rollerskating and then to the mall. It seems as though we spent a lot of the day running around, but we had a great time. I got the yard almost mowed. I couldn't finish because we got some much rain. I am looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow. I sure hope the kids are on that schedule too.

How ironic the book that Jordan chose to read tonight was a history book her teacher gave her. The book featured a few different cities throughout the country. And of course, I managed to stumble upon Santa Fe, New Mexico. Jordan thought it was soooo cool that I was just there visiting. She said, "when do I get to go there, Mom." How interesting. She thinks the mountains are awesome. Funny, so does her mom. =)

I can't wait to get back to that beautiful state and explore some more. Let the adventures begin...

M=since church really battling the headache
E=happy
P=guilty (other than rollerskating & mowing, nothing eltse today); although I am determined to kiss ass next week!
S=disconnected...but also determined to change that next week too!

Best of luck in the 50 miler tomorrow...I love you! xoxox

30 May 2008 - Day 68

For some reason, although I was very busy at the office today, I just couldn't seem to stay focused. I had lots of other things on my mind...so easily distracted. However, I did have a pretty fun time actually messing around with Vic this afternoon picking paint colors for his friend's house. (How interesting...actually doing something I am "qualified" to do.) Maybe that was my message for the day. Maybe I should start re-focusing on what it is that Dawn enjoys...not just going through the motions. I seem to kinda steer away from change, but there is someone who really helps me open my eyes to a fresh new world of choices/opportunities. So I will stop and listen to the world of opportunties around me, and become more aware of those choices that seem to demand my attention.

M=distracted
E=happy
P=fighting symptoms
S=seeking direction

29 May 2008 - Day 67

This morning started pretty rough...not feeling very good. For a while, I thought I was going to have to head home to take a nap, but lunch really cheered up my spirits. I had lunch at Casa's with Jackie and Robyn. Man, I love her! She really cracks me up. Although I am a little jealous that her divorce is going to be wrapped up before mine, I am very glad that she is seeking personal happiness. She really deserves it. She is an incredible friend. One of those friends that you can always pick right up where you left off...hard to find...a real treasure!

So other than the terrible persistant headache that kept trying to slow me down, I had a pretty cool day. Very busy again at the office, but made some pretty good progress. I don't think that we are going to make our deadline tomorrow, but that is definitely not due to me. Ron is thoroughly behind on redlines again....or should I say, still? Anyway, looking forward to some mommy/daughter time on Saturday morning; planning a trip to the roller dome. I am certain I enjoy it as much as she does.

Time to rest up in hopes that this is not the onset of any mysterious virus, but just a minor cold.

M=too hard to answer with this damn headache
E=happy
P=little fatigued
S=disconnected, but determined to refocus

28 May 2008 - Day 66

So here comes the short version...since I am a little behind in my responsibilities for the day, and a little stressed out by all that is still left on my plate for the evening. Work was great; very busy, just the way I like it. I am being pulled in many directions, which can be a little overwhelming, but all in good timing, since I am really starting to stress a little about money. So the extra work is perfect! This morning we were actually on time for school and work. Which really helped start things off well. Still getting a little re-adjusted to my routine, but determined to get back in the groove of meditation.

Evening got a little complicated, but nothing unlike what I am used to. Had fun with the kids, went to Petland to check out the doggies, and had some outdoor fun...well, until Jordan came crashing down. But all is good, other than the beginning of scraped summer knees and elbows.

Still so much to do, including my workout, so better run.

M=a little stressed
E=Happy in love
P=Strong
S=out of touch

27 May 2008 - Day 65

Today was a day of traveling, but for some reason, with each trip it seems as though I am always ending up in the wrong place. Today was definitely no exception. I had an incredible weekend with Dave. Friday we went to the Elephant Bar, had a fantastic dinner with cocktails. Saturday he made me breakfast, (I burnt the bacon, in turn, making a special treat for Tung), he took me up the mountain on the world's longest tram, went to Flying Star for lunch, cuddled for a long nap in the world's most comfortable bed, went desert exploring in the FJ, snuggled in bed and watched "Off the Map" on the laptop. Sunday we went to St. Clair Winery for brunch, took the scenic drive up to Santa Fe, stopped at Madrid along the way, ate at a wonderful outdoor restaurant called Cafe Paris, ate dinner with mom and dad, he took me on a date to the theatre to see Indiana Jones. Monday we went pet food and grocery shopping, then he convinced me to take the lift up to the top of Sandia Peak (10,000+feet) and mountain bike down...for the first time ever, mind you. It was awesome, especially after I got over my green-ness. Dave is an excellent coach. Once I learned quickly from my early mistake of not keeping my pedals even when riding over rocks, all was good. Then we rushed back to the house for a Memorial Day cookout with the neighbors. Then after chatting with mom and dad, saying our good-byes, we went to bed to snuggle.

Now that brings me back to today...the return. And for what? That is the question. It is certainly getting harder and harder with each visit to head in the opposite direction. All I can do is look forward to the next one. So until the next one, I hope time moves quickly and smoothly. Thanks for an incredible weekend. You are truly phenomenal! I love you!
xoxox

21 May 2008 - Day 59

I am so completely excited about this weekend, I can hardly stay focused enough to blog. I had a pretty busy day. Between finishing all my project assignments for Vera Bradley and NRP Financial, I didn't have much time to sit still. Which considering how easily distracted I can get by my Davy, that is probably a really good thing that I was that busy. It definitely helped the day go by quickly. So work was good, love to be busy. Then got the dreaded email from the attorney. Of course, just as I expected, nothing with asshat can go smoothly. I can't believe the nerve he has, but I guess when I really think about it, I didn't expect otherwise. So on we go to mediation, then we will see where this path leads. All I can say is I sure hope this lesson can be learned soon, because I am getting very tired of dealing with his shit. But most importantly, I know what I have found is well werth any obstacle. To find true love once is amazing; to find it twice is nothing short of destiny. I would travel through all of it again for you, Dave. I love you!

M=Distracted =)
E=Excited!!!
P=Strong
S=Seeking

20 May 2008 - Day 58

It has been a pretty crazy day, but a good day. I was super busy at work, which is making me a little nuts by all the disorganization, but I guess busy is much better than slow. I have a ton to finish before I can relax and get packed for the weekend. My to-do list is growing by the minute. So as I sit here, finally, after working all day, then a long work-out at the gym, and mowing the yard. Now on to the multi-tasking as usual...typing my blog, while eating my salad. =)

Shit! I shouldn't have mentioned the weekend, because now I can't seem to stay focused at all...hehehe.

Anyway, I still have to run to Leigh Ann's to sort the garage sale earnings, which will be good to have the cash for the weekend, so I better get on with it. Man, I did it again...weekend, weekend, weekend...can you tell I am a little excited? Mostly because I get to see my Davy, and knowing that he is feeling sooooo much better really makes me happy. I can't wait! See you soon.

M=Sharp
E=Excited!
P=Strong, feel good.
S=Seeking